508's Secret English Garden

Appreciate What You Have Now

      “Sorry, I don’t think I can do it well.” I used to say this.

When I was in junior high school, I often felt that I lacked confidence because every classmate was an expert in something, such as painting, dancing, playing the instruments, and so on.  I was surrounded by them like a fool, because I wasn’t good at anything.  In the art class, they painted so quickly and beautifully, but I could just stare at my childish doodle.  

Every day, things around me kept destroying my little confidence.  My best friend excelled at playing the piano. She was usually requested to perform in music competitions.  Once before she went on the stage, I told her not to be nervous so that she could perform remarkably. To my surprise, she replied “I know it, and I have much more performing experience than you.” Though I knew she didn’t mean it, my feelings were hurt by her careless words.

One day, I saw a disabled man working hard to get on a bus.  He stood up slowly from a wheel chair and moved difficultly.  While many passengers started feeling impatient, he made it eventually.  Looking at the confident smile on his face, I suddenly realized something I had not thought of.  Before this man overcame his challenged body, he had to break through his mental obstacle.

I don’t need to feel embarrassed about my talents.  Instead, I should be confident in what I have.  At least I have a kind heart, several good friends and perseverance in achieving goals.  As a saying goes, “All things in their being are good for something.”  Although there are still many people better than I am, I feel more confident than ever.